Hey guys! It's Scriddles here! Just thought I'd drop in to take a look at this old place again. So, while I was here, I decided that I would leave y'all a note about my whereabouts these past couple of months. So, where have I been?
I've been spending my time away from dA, mostly because I've moved onto different websites, and also because I wanted to sort of take a break and go on a soul-searching journey. Did I find what I was looking for? Well... not exactly... but I still gained a great deal of knowledge nevertheless.
For one thing, I discovered something about myself that I've been curious about since I was maybe 3. I think I've got DDNOS-1 (Dissociative Disorder Not Otherwise Specified, Category 1), which is a lot like DID (dissociative identity disorder) except I don't black out or lose large chunks of time. I'm hoping to get diagnosed sometime in the near future, although, seeing how little resources I've got where I live, I suppose all I can do is hope that my next psychologist will know enough about dissociative disorders to make an accurate diagnosis. I don't want her labelling me as schizophrenic after all (since that is definitely not what I have).
Hmm, what else... Oh! I also found a support group I can vent on, so that's good. And I also found the DID community on tumblr, so I certainly feel less alone in what I'm going through (even though I'm not technically qualified to be DID, I'm still kinda close).
And recently, one of my alters has become strong enough to encourage me to try and become religious again (at least to the point where I am praying 5 times a day and fulfilling the basic 5 pillars like I should). I really hope that I can stick with it this time... and that I'm making the right decision... religion is tough, though, because you never know if God's gonna pull a fast one on you once you die and go "Oopsies! Well, looks like I actually created this religion instead of the one you followed so I'm just gonna throw you in the pit of fire now. Have fun!" or if he really has no religious preference at all and he just wishes for us all to lead good lives as best as we can, following whatever religion we believe is the absolute truth... I hope it's the last one... I'd love for everyone of every religion to make it to Heaven, so as long as their religious actions do not perpetuate harm onto others.
Oh my! Look at me, rambling again. I gotta stop doing that. Oh well. Anyways, that's where I've been this whole time. I'm awfully sorry that I've been gone for so long. I wish that I could be on here more often, but my real life priorities and my overall health come first. I hope you've all been doing well yourselves!
I'd also like to add that I have another account I can be found on (just in case you guys wanna contact me). ButterfliesAnonymous
My more peaceful and youthful alters use that account (one protector and the little ones) while most of my older alters use this account. I gotta introduce them to you guys one of these days, but that's only if they feel comfortable with that.P.S.S.
Also, if you're gonna leave an ignorant comment about DID or DDNOS in the comments, I would like to direct your attention to the X button on the upper right corner of your browser. Rude or offensive comments about these things will not be tolerated
. It is alright if you have questions (like if you wanna ask me about my alters), just don't go leaving insults because I guarantee you that your comment will not be replied to. Instead, it will be deleted and you will be blocked from my page, and that will be the end of it. This condition is completely legitimate, and I am not "crazy" or "insane" for probably having it (I say probably because I still need an official diagnosis. I'm 99.9% sure I've got DDNOS though). If you'd like to know more about DID, there's a nice little comic about it right here: tigrin.deviantart.com/art/D-I-…